What I am struggling with is patience, particularly patience to find out the unknown. Recently I have just felt like I am living in the unknown, waiting for Heavenly Father to direct me on the path in which I am supposed to go. And it is hard. It is the worst feeling ever. Limbo.
I know Heavenly Father has a huge, wonderful, glorious plan for me. But I feel like I am stuck.
Have you ever seen a starting gate of a horse race? There are about twelve to fourteen gate lined up in a row. The horse enters into the gate from the back, where the front is locked with an electric lock. Then when the starter is satisfied with all the horses in their place and ready to start, he presses a button. That button stops the current of electricity in each lock and the doors open all at the same time and the race is on. But I feel like my lock is not working. I am stuck in the starting gate while everyone else is out there racing.
But not only is my lock not working, my lock is different from everyone else's lock because mine has a secret combination. And only I am able to unlock it. Except I do not know the combination. But the Lord does. And as I am fiddling with the lock, struggling to open it, the Lord is giving me hints to that combination. There are times where I feel like I am so close to figuring it out and opening that lock. But then I am proven wrong, and I am nowhere near opening that lock.
Then today while I was at my grandparent's house, I noticed this framed in my grandpa's office:
That. Right there. That is just what I am going to do.
Don't think of it as being stuck at the gate but more being on a different track than all the other horses! You're racing your own race and when you look at everyone else they seem to be ahead, but when you look at your own track you realize your tracks are just simply different and you can't really compare the two. So you just keep racin your race!
ReplyDeleteSam you are the best! Thank you for that advice!
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